Maybe this is just boredom speaking, or maybe I'm just going through some "mid-college" crisis, but lately I have been thinking more and more about my intense want, and need, to be apart of something grander and bigger than myself. I've talked with a lot of people my age recently who are actually doing things like this; Going on mission trips, going to Turkey, or Africa, and other amazing things. These people are taking a stand, my generation is finally getting up and saying no more to injustice, and doing things to help out others and further God's kingdom.
I watch movies and TV shows and see people taking a stand, people who aren't living the comfortable life, who are out there getting messy and making a difference. And all I can think is, "Why can't I do that?"
Yet, despite my intense desire to change the world and be apart of something grand, I still find myself sitting around twiddling my thumbs, being bored, and wondering what to do. Monotonous day after day goes by yet I still do nothing about it. I want a life that isn't comfortable anymore, I want to be dead tired at the end of the day, yet knowing I did a job well done. I want things to go bad, so that I can learn to lean more on God, and learn from my mistakes. Most of all I want at the end of my life to skid into the grave bruised and broken, but knowing, that was quite a ride.
